Five Gods Exiled — 174 of 191

Carolyn VanEseltine

Release 1

Part 1- Appearance of the Shadow

To prepare the shadow self:

if the player is male:

now the shadow self is male;

otherwise:

now the shadow self is female.

Understand "man" as the shadow self when the shadow self is male.

Understand "woman" as the shadow self when the shadow self is female.

Instead of examining the shadow self:

now the current person is the player;

say "You gaze at the [zhoman] for a long moment, taking in [zher] [build of the current person] frame, [zher] [skin tone of the current person] skin, [zher] [eye color of the current person] eyes, and [zher] [hair reference]. [Zhe] is ";

if the age of the player < 20:

say "teenage ([age of the player in words]? ";

otherwise if the age of the player >= 20 and the age of the player < 24:

say "young (in [zher] early twenties? ";

otherwise if the age of the player >= 24 and the age of the player < 26:

say "young (in [zher] mid-twenties? ";

otherwise if the age of the player >= 26 and the age of the player < 30:

say "young (in [zher] late twenties? ";

otherwise if the age of the player >= 30 and the age of the player < 34:

say "young (in [zher] early thirties? ";

otherwise if the age of the player >= 34 and the age of the player < 36:

say "young (in [zher] mid-thirties? ";

otherwise if the age of the player >= 36 and the age of the player < 40:

say "young (in [zher] late thirties? ";

otherwise if the age of the player >= 40 and the age of the player < 44:

say "middle-aged (in [zher] early forties? ";

otherwise if the age of the player >= 44 and the age of the player < 46:

say "middle-aged (in [zher] mid-forties? ";

otherwise if the age of the player >= 46 and the age of the player < 50:

say "middle-aged (in [zher] late forties? ";

otherwise if the age of the player >= 50 and the age of the player < 54:

say "middle-aged (in [zher] early fifties? ";

otherwise if the age of the player >= 54 and the age of the player < 56:

say "middle-aged (in [zher] mid-fifties? ";

otherwise if the age of the player >= 56 and the age of the player < 60:

say "middle-aged (in [zher] late fifties? ";

otherwise if the age of the player >= 60:

say "an older [zhoman] (over sixty, at least? ";

if the will of the player > 8:

say "You're almost positive) ";

otherwise if the will of the player > 5:

say "You're pretty sure) ";

otherwise if the will of the player > 3:

say "You think so) ";

otherwise:

say "You're not really sure at all, though [zher] age is yours) ";

say "but there is still a peculiar agelessness to [zhim]";

say ".[paragraph break][first time]This person does not belong here - there's a distinct wrongness that accompanies [zher] presence. But at the same time, there's a great relief to seeing [zhim], because [zhe] is you. The way [zhe] holds [zher] body, the way [zhe] meets your eyes as you look at [zhim], the shape of [zher] mouth in silence - it's all as familiar as a mirror.[paragraph break][only]This [zhoman] is a projection of your exiled self upon the blighted world, familiar and comforting only because [zhe] is part of you.[paragraph break][Zhe] ";

if (rhealth of the player - chealth of the player) is 0:

say "gazes calmly back at you";

otherwise if chealth of the player is 1:

say "trembles uncontrollably, and [zher] form flickers as if [zhe] were not entirely here. [Zher] eyes dart madly about, but rest on nothing";

otherwise:

say "seems to be in pain - [zhe] breathes shallowly through [zher] mouth as [zhe] scans the horizon with [zher] gaze";

if the shadow self is carrying a memento:

now all mementos carried by the shadow self are marked for listing;

say ".[paragraph break]Your shadow is";

if the shadow self is wearing a memento:

say " wearing [a list of mementos worn by the shadow self]";

now all mementos worn by the shadow self are unmarked for listing;

if the shadow self is carrying a memento that is marked for listing:

say " and";

if the shadow self is carrying a memento that is marked for listing:

say " carrying [a list of mementos carried by the shadow self]";

say ".";

otherwise:

say "."